Sunday, July 31, 2011

How do you define your feelings?

Thomas Hardy said - "It is difficult for a woman to define her feelings in a language which is chiefly made by men to express theirs."

When I was a child, my mother sent me to ballet school so I wouldn't walk with a swayed back. When I was old enough, I chose to take Modern Dance and, at the time, Afro Jazz, and then Modern Jazz. I ultimately joined a dance company in my early 20s.

I danced a lot and did a lot of amateur performing whenever I had the opportunity. I wanted to be a dancer in college, but my mother discouraged me. Arguably, that could be the reason I dropped out the first time. In my next round of college, I often auditioned for plays as a 'dancer', but soon they started casting me as an 'actor.' I was still the Dance captain a lot of the time, but I started to get speaking parts!

I never stopped writing. I moved from being onstage to backstage. I stopped dancing. I stopped performing. But I never lost my muse. I do not purport to be an actor, but I am, and I will always be, a dancer. It's in my blood. And I am and will always be, a writer. What I can no longer say with my body, I must say with my words, for it must be said!